It's not every day you get fan mail like this. And I figured I'd share.
As you by now are well aware of, you are fortunate enough not to have your head shoved up your ass. I'd put that in the win column, but you don't seem like the type of person who likes to be told what to do, so do with it what you will. You seem to view the world quite rationally and logically, and for this you will be ostracized.
Trust me, I speak from experience. I guarantee without knowing you that people know you're different almost immediately, and this will generally scare the shit out of them. Though by the same experience I must note that 9 times out of 10 when someone tells you to trust them it is primarily because you shouldn't. You seem like the type of person who pretends to be apathetic as a coping mechanism for how helpless you feel against this aggravating world and the perpetuating cycle of destruction that we call civilization. **Side note – I actually quite enjoy your work and perspective on life. I won't bury you in compliments; you're ego seems quite healthy as it is, as it should be.**
The point of this ramble is as much as you might or might not care, I wanted to tell you that you're right. Not about everything, but about enough to see the world as it is. Only the mediocre are always at their best, which is why you are doomed. You are a lot of things, but mediocre is not one of them. The world will view you as a failure if only as a reflection on your own unattainable expectations for yourself and for society. But on the bright side, all great art comes from powerful emotions, and the pain your lucidity will bring should make for an interesting perspective at the very least . So don't give up, damn the man, and just because the numbers are not in your favor does not make them right.
Salo
I think this is a compliment. But I can't be sure.